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[burningideals]

Hey. I'm not around. Leave a message and i'll get back to you.

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[velocityraptor]

Yeah, that. What makes you so sure about it?

[burningideals]

Well. Experience.

I can say shit like that because I've had to do that myself. Couldn't you tell? Living the life the way I want and not giving a damn.. that's always what i've done.

Better to live your life without regrets instead of wondering what the hell you could have done differently.

[velocityraptor]

Not everyone can get away with what you do.

I don't have regrets.

Okay, I have regrets, but they're not fixable. They're not the kind of thing I can just do something about. At least, I don't think so. And still, realistically, I know I couldn't have done anything differently.

[burningideals]

Why not?

Tell me what they are and i'll tell you if they're not really fixable.

[velocityraptor]

It's the kind of regret where what's done is done and there's nothing I can do to change that.

I regret having avoided my family, and not doing anything to help them. It's too late to do so, for many reasons, but that's my biggest regret.

[burningideals]

Guess I can say it's somewhat similar for me.

Could have done shit better but there's no fixing it. Not much to really look forwards to whenever I go back so it's more reason to do whatever I want so I can die without regrets.

Nobody's going to stop you from doing the same.

[velocityraptor]

Finding my way back, nothing changes for me. They'll use me until I burn out, probably. However many more months I have to do on almost no sleep might be enough to do me in. Kidding, of course.

I even agreed to stay here and if everything gets destroyed, I'll have gotten out. Me. I feel guilt about that too.

[burningideals]

Better than knowing you're gonna go back and end up dying, isn't it? Gotta say you have it a little better than me.

Don't. They treat you like a damn tool. Don't feel guilty about getting away from shit like that.

[velocityraptor]

Guess so. Sorry about that. If it's any consolation, I'm sure there's a ticking clock over my head.

Yeah, well, I am a tool. I'm just there to do their bidding. Our relationship is complicated at best.

That's what I don't get, why do you think they can't follow me here? Can't they?

[burningideals]

Don't have to apologize. It was something I brought on myself. You at least have a say in things taking a different turn.

Birdie. You're a person. Not a tool. How many times do I have to say that shit?

Stop living in fear of them. They're not going to show up here... and if they do? Guess they might end up in flames.

[velocityraptor]

Do I really? I don't know if you know this, but there's not a whole lot I get a say in.

That's not how they see it.

I'm not afraid, I just don't want to die yet.

[burningideals]

Doesn't have to stay that way. Who knows. Things might change for you.

Their opinion means shit. Bunch of manipulative bastards running things behind the scenes.

So what I said still stands. They show up here? Can't promise I won't just torch them.

[velocityraptor]

You're saying that to get me to tell you not to do it. Which I should.

Anyway, I didn't really text you to whine, I've just been thinking about what you said. I don't know what to do with this information.

[burningideals]

Guilty. Guess you saw through me a little too easy there.

Should be pretty easy to figure out. You're overthinking it when you just need to do whatever the hell you want.

Unless you're afraid of finally letting loose there, birdie?

[velocityraptor]

I didn't tell you not to.

I'm not afraid! I mean, after we talked I slept for like a whole day uninterrupted. That, and seeking out some fried chicken and I'm good.

[ His dreams are so, so small. ]

[burningideals]

I know. Didn't say I wasn't going to still do it, either.

Small steps but it's a start.

Have any luck finding that fried chicken yet?

[velocityraptor]

No comment.

Not yet, unfortunately. I could live on chicken, I really could.

[burningideals]

Careful there, birdie.

Too much of that could be bad for you.

[velocityraptor]

I don't think it could actually, although if I ate it fried all the time, I might gain weight, which I don't want to hear about. It's not really part of my diet.

[burningideals]

If you did go and gain some weight, you really think i'd stay quiet about that?

Anyway. Guess if you find a place that does have that. Let me know. Might be worth it to give it a try.

[velocityraptor]

It's not you I'm worried about. My handlers never stop bitching when I go off my diet, they always notice when I go in for modeling and stuff.

Yeah, sure, I'll point you in that direction.

[burningideals]

You actually do modeling? Color me surprised, birdie.

Nah. Have to join me for that. Not negotiable.

[velocityraptor]

I'm surprised you didn't look into my career that deeply.

You want me to come with you?

[burningideals]

I only looked into what I needed to know. Being aware that you modelled wasn't important at the time.

Yeah. Thought I made that part clear.

[velocityraptor]

It's not as fun as it looks and it's a huge waste of my time.

Aw, did you miss me already?

Seriously though, why? You don't have to associate with me anymore, even though I know it's stupid to say that after I texted you first. I don't think anyone's ever invited me out to lunch, actually.